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It’s a turning point…. One more year….

IMG_4328So there’s this secret that I’m about to share….. It’s beyond surreal, and for some reasons (certain ones obvious) it’s hard to admit…..

Tomorrow I turn 39. The final year of this decade – my 30’s…. I can say that while I took some serious blows that were soul crushing, I also pushed beyond what I thought possible. And my 30’s, so far, have been the best possible years of my life. Though there are two things I would like to note: one, I don’t plan on allowing this final year to be anything less than awesome and two, I plan on making the next decade, oh those 40’s……. Even more awesome than what I’ve witnessed, enjoyed, been part of, lived thru, endured, accomplished, felt, loved, cried, laughed, struggled and persevered thru in my 30’s….

While skiing this past week with my kids, now 19 and 15 (gosh I started early), thru the laughter and talking I also began thinking………..

You know,  when you’re 15 – or 19 – or even 25… People in there 30’s seem so old. You’re still naive to life at that point… You start to think “I’ll never be that old”… At concerts you look back and think “why are those old people here?!?!”. These past 9 years of “30” have shown many realities. I seem to have more crows lining my eyes when I smile (the nice way of me saying wrinkles), my metabolism has decided to not go full throttle anymore (I think it may not be working at all)… There are aches that didn’t ache before (Past accidents are haunting). There are bones that don’t flex quite as easily as they once did and well (they really don’t want to flex at all)… When you hit the ground with any speed (I still get out and push myself beyond certain limits) it hurts…. And it hurts more and takes longer, at times, much longer to heal.

OH! Let me add in there that with this age there can also come a sneeze that can throw your back out and leave you, well….. That fucker will leave you right where you sneezed, just hoping that you can make it to a place to lay down till it works itself out. haha…

You know what else though, about your thirties…. You realize many many things you never thought about in your 20’s. And toward your mid-late 30’s (because 39 is your mid late 30’s), you begin to truly understand more of what you realized… You learn size is just a number. If you feel good, and it looks good, it’s all good (if you don’t like the number, rip the tag out)… Some of the other things you learn, or that I’ve learned…. Well let’s see….

  • You find comfort in the smallest of things and no longer search high and low for something that excites you, because now what might excite you could be as simple as your childs laugh. Or sitting on the porch with a book as the sun goes down. And you actually allow yourself to do these small things now.
  • Perfection is completely over-rated and control should not be a concern.
  • You don’t need to do things that you don’t want to do. Really, if you don’t want to do it, don’t. (as long as you’re not hurting anyone)…. Your time is precious and you should do those things that make you comfortable.
  • You discover just how strong willed you are and how you can make anything happen if you want it bad enough and are willing to work hard enough.
  • You realize that you mess up, and everyone messes up. It’s part of life and if you can’t accept it, you will struggle with it for the rest of your time. Instead, you work with it and do your best to not mess up or let someone else’s mess up effect your days anymore.
  • You understand that there are heart breaking pains which will always be with you. They never go away. Instead you let the feelings happen when they happen, good or bad, and you know they will happen again on another day sometime.
  • You learn that each struggle, each soul crushing blow makes you who you are. And the way you get thru it is up to you. But you will get thru it and you will be stronger on the other side.
  • You learn that others in your life have been in the trenches as well, and they’re the real ones. Not the trenches which are useless made up drama, but the real deal. And you meet some that have been deeper in the trenches and dealt with situations you could never image. And you find it admirable to see that they have come thru and are survivors and to simply be more like them would be a blessing.
  • You learn that failure will be and is part of life, and failure will, hands down, be one of your best teachers.
  • You learn not to kick others when they’re up or down. It’s unfair and unkind. And you’ve been there before and you surely didn’t want to be kicked.
  • You learn that you’re not here for yourself. You’re here for others. For those around you. Let go of what may have happened in the past and be the best you can be for those in your life. They’re there for a reason and some will always be there thru thick or thin, for good or bad.
  • You learn that tears are not weakness and emotions make you who you are. It’s up to you if you decide to let your walls down… If there are people that can’t accept your emotions, that’s on them, not you.
  • You learn to hand on, really fucking tight, to the good moments and the good memories and the rest, throw them as far away from you as you can. Fill yourself with all the good ones. Glow in their light…
  • You learn that where you live, what you live in, how much you have of something, the label on your newest purchase, status, titles, don’t mean a friggin’ thing. Rarely will anyone be remembered for their professional accomplishments but instead how they made people feel.
  • And while it’s not something I have learned, one last thing I am adding into this list is something I am going to allow…. “What is it?” you ask…. I’m going to allow myself to enjoy. When i want pizza, I will enjoy and savor that pizza. Not just one piece, I will enjoy what I want. The whiskey I drink, I will savor. And when I want to just sit and read instead of getting out and pushing myself into a workout. I will sit and read………..

I could go on, but instead, this last day of 38 I am going to slow down…. I’m going to slow WAY down today. I’m going to watch the snow fall outside and I’m going to play with our puppies. I’m going to start to peak at the other side of the coming hill (SOME SERIOUS STUFF IS COMING THAT I CAN NOT WAIT TO SHARE!)…. Thru this last year…. Of my 30’s, I will look back and appreciate everyone, every moment, every gain and every loss that has gotten me to the point I’m at.

Then, a year from today, I will bid this decade a sweet farewell. Because you know what…. I’m going to make my 40’s with some new wrinkles – a few more emerging gray hairs and all, the best yet.

This I promise…

This….. I …… Promise……..


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Who am I, right now as a photographer, your photographer…

11825739_10153507746543665_4978114759744452329_nEvery once in a while, I start to ask that question of myself and depending on the time of year or where life has me, the answer varies a little… But really. Who am I??? Well, in the past few weeks I’ve traveled quite a bit for weddings. And this Sunday I head to Jamaica for what’s sure to be an awesome one. I come back to a couple Ct. weddings, then back to Maine, then back in Ct. Rhode Island and more.

In that travel, I think- at times, more than I should, but I’m a thinker. I may not always say that most in words, but I think, think and then think some more… Sometimes it’s about the person walking down the side walk or the old man sitting on the bench I just walked by that I exchanged pleasantries with. Almost always curious of what their story is and who they are. And then my mind comes back to who I am… As a photographer, your photographer. Because who I am myself, surely reflects in who I am as a wedding photographer and creator as a whole.

First and foremost, this year I am in a quiet thinking space. I have found myself sitting, countless hours thru countless evenings in one spot… On my porch. Usually, a glass of whiskey in my hand. Something like a Double Oaked –  Woodford Reserve or Markers 46 if it’s being stirred in to create a tasty treat…

Anyway. I sit on my porch. Curtains pulled to the side. Music going, usually acoustic or indie folk at a very loud volume (good thing Chris my neighbor is cool). The sun starts to create a dappled light across the yard and into the porch area as it dips down into the trees. Then slowly, it rolls behind the peak of Sweetheart Mountain, but it’s not done yet! Because in that moment, if there are clouds, that’s when it really starts to come to life. Painting the sky in pinks, grays, purples and more.

And there… There I still sit. Lots of times I think of the way I shoot so many images, some that I pose, some that I don’t. And many more really, because my goal is to always make my couple look the best they can. Even for that couple that says “we want all candid images”, my question is this. “Do you want to look the best you can?” For a couple that says “no”… Okay then, I shoot away with out posing shots. For the couple that says “Yes, of course we want to look the best we can”… We pose. We create. Just not in a stuffy, old fashioned way. Instead in a clean, organic timeless way. All while I aim to still capture moments that happen on their own and shooting photojournalist’ically along the way. (By the way, no one has ever answered “no” to that question…)…

Back to my point, what I really do love. What I truly love about what I do, capturing weddings and all. Being invited into weddings, is love itself. I came back from a Maine wedding this past weekend and while I haven’t gone thru all the images. There’s one image that I have already gone thru and it’s actually already made it’s way onto the @tabphotographic instagram page. It’s an image, that in my head could sum up this wedding as a whole. Not because it’s full of passion. Or a sunset… Or that perfect lighting or perfect “pose”… It does it because for me – this image sums up the love of their wedding day. Newly married. His hand in hers. Not a locked down hand hold, but a soft, “come with me dear and allow me to guide you thru all the days of our future”… It’s that, or rather “those” moments and images that are my favorite thru a wedding day. And to me, it’s those that can be the perfect image of a wedding day. Not to mention, blow this image up to 48 inches wide and it would make an awesome piece of art for the couple.

So, maybe I didn’t answer the question in the way you thought I would. Maybe to some of you, I didn’t answer the question at all… I guess all I’m saying is that right now, who I am as a photographer, as your photographer, is a simple answer. I’m quietly strolling thru my year, capturing over 45 weddings across the country and more. In doing so, I love those hidden moments and gems that I find in a wedding day – in every wedding day. Because it’s in those moments I feel whole.

Because well….. I guess I just love love….


“That moment, after the “I-do’s”… When every touch is more present. When she takes his hand and guides him up the trail as she will do now and forever… And he will in turn lead when needed and protect her always. But that simple touch of the hand in one of the most wonderful things around”……..

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A week in the life of….. An Open Letter

You know, some people see a successful photographer and they see our “party of a lifestyle” world. They see our photos, our travels, our good times and more. And I won’t lie… We do have our moments where we rock it out!

Thru that, while we surely love what we do, while we are blessed to be successful with the ability to take our passion and create a life. There is so much more. Last week, from Sunday to Sunday, I shot 4 weddings, 2 engagement sessions, booked two weddings, edited two weddings and 3 engagement sessions, drove about 500 miles, responded to at least 40 e-mails, did the laundry, dishes, got my daughter where she needed to go, drank lots of coffee, listened to tons of music, mowed the lawn, took out the trash, painted my upstairs hallway and believe it or not, even more. (I even showered)

And all that, that’s our reality, especially as a single parent 50% of the week. The reality is, we push, we push hard (harder than we even believe we can at times) and we thrive on accomplishing everything that lies on the mountain in front of us. When you see our “party life style” it’s because we simply love what we do. What you don’t see is how we collapse into the adirondack chair on the porch in dead silence trying to recharge while taking in the minutes as the sun sets in front of us…… Or how we will find a book and curl up into the smallest of balls sheltering ourselves from the world as we let go of everything in our minds and fall into a different world hidden in the pages…

This past week, roughly the past 10 days, is the hardest in every one of my years. You can read this post which I put on Facebook last week to know a bit more:



Remember these two men we tragically lost? For certain reasons, VERY CERTAIN REASONS, we need to always remember that everyone has a struggle of some sort in their life. Somewhere, on the surface or deep inside, a struggle. Much as these two awesome fucking individuals had. As bright as they were, as creative and skilled as they were. A struggle…

11406169_10153357963158665_6931891170251710933_oTomorrow marks an anniversary date for me to a really rough accident I had. It landed me in the trauma center where I was listed as a “john doe” for the first 10 hours of my stay there, in that time, I had no family. I had no one by my side. I didn’t even have myself…. That accident changed a LOT in my life. Both good and bad.

10 days after that accident I – as well as my sister, mother step mother and the rest of our family – lost my father…. (whom, for those of you that don’t know, was a professional photographer)…..

Needless to say, this stretch, every year is hard. Incredibly hard. Not to mention life as it is.

I’m an artist, deep inside, an artist. I feel things. And man, sometimes I feel them deep…. More than many, I would assume?

And most of you probably realize this.. I also know that I’m sooooo incredibly lucky to be able to do what I do with the passion that drives me day in and day out. Capturing weddings allows me to be who I am. To feel, to create, to capture. I won’t lie, come find me on a Monday after a double or triple header wedding weekend and you’ll most likely find me closed up in my house searching for any little piece of energy I can find to rebuild and recharge… But I’ll be searching because I put my all into what I do, for my couples and for myself… And I’m okay with that because I’m prepared for it…

As hard as it is, every year, every stretch, from a bit before 6/6 to a bit after 6/16, I get thru. I get thru because I have a network around me that understand who I am. As a person and individual.

I’m not writing this for myself, for attention, for this or for that…. I’m writing this because most of us, day in and day out, don’t know half the struggles that the person right next to us may be facing, going thru or trying to find a way out of. So be kind. Smile… Reach out.

Because darkness is a really fucking scary place….


10562576_10203314775127504_6744848613664302441_oAnd that brings me to this day, after realizing I have probably booked my June up non-stop on purpose with out it being “on purpose”. I have probably done so to stop my mind from having the time to think and feel every emotion that comes with these moments in the year… And now, today, the back end of this dark stretch marks the “anniversary” date of my fathers passing in 2006. Not many of you know, that I did, in fact, become a photographer because of my father. I never dreamed it’s what I would be doing, I never thought it would be my career, let alone be as successful as I am, yet here I sit. And I sit loving every minute of it and would thank him 100 times over if I could…

You see, I got back into photography simply as a way to keep that part of my father with me. And now, I can only hope with my highest of hopes – that, that incredible man is looking down on me with a wide smile and a giving me a pat on my back. ( That’s my dad, and that little dark haired kid, yea… That’s me )

Anyway… These weeks of non-stop are truly what our lives, at least 8 months out of the year consist of. Going non-stop, spending hours in our cars and in front of our computers. Shooting constantly, planning, staying on target and doing what we can to rock every moment of it out and loving every second of it!!! At least for me….

THANK YOUAnd the thing is, I do this for many reasons.

Inside, I’m sure one of those reasons is my father, but a couple other reasons are for each and every one of you… My clients. Because it’s receiving texts like “BLOWN AWAY – AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME” or “OMG…… I have no words but if I could get married again, every weekend, to have you work that magic – I would – I LOVE YOU – WE LOVE YOU!!! ” from brides and couples (both of which were also received this week) Or receiving thank you cards and little gifts from my couples like the one to the right…

It’s these things. It’s knowing the happiness that I bring to my couples. It’s creating pieces for them to remember and recall moments from. It’s these things that make the constant go, and the battle thru the “darker” days worth it…

And for that, while you guys are always thanking me, I THANK YOU… I don’t think a single one of you understands the fuel and energy you give me to not only keep pushing thru and creating and doing my best, but to get thru the days when I don’t want to push thru and no matter what, to continue to shine – day in and day out…

With every part of me… I thank you!!! THANK YOU!!!

I miss, love and thank you as well dad……..




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Adventures and Discovery – Project Coasting






blog3Why is it… That so many people in this world, even more so here in the U.S., want to go on vacation and to travel to get away from “something”… I’ll be totally honest here. That’s the most completely wrong way to travel. To get away…. BUT… It’s not easy for us to go for the right reasons. To travel, to explore and to go on adventures to find things. To see things and to feel things. To smell things and to taste things…

blog6I guess the real question is simple to ask yet not simple to find an answer to.  How are we able to let go of what we want to run from, in order to discover what we should be running to? And well, you, YES YOU are the only one that can answer that question. The hardest part though, is realizing that you need to ask yourself that question in the first place. When you have the ability to stop running from, but instead run to.

Recently, I began a new project, capturing the entire US coast of the Atlantic Ocean. From there, maybe I will wrap my way around the country. But starting here is home. To discover what the shoreline changes from and morphs into from Northern Maine to the Florida Keys. While I have already begun this project, this is the first post I’m sharing. And well, I guess the reality for what is shared are only pieces and parts. Because the best shots, my favorites. The ones with that dramatic sky, the perfect light, the most serene and or secret of locations are being kept under wraps until they are released in only the most grand of ways.

blog7These teasing images are from a recent adventure into Maine. Where the wind blows cold and the waves bring full trees of drift wood ashore. In Acadia, the rocks. The waves. The smell of pine. The cracked shoreline. The rocks broken so deep, yet solid. The waves sneak up on those rocks and the shoreline of cliffs and pine. Then exploding. Hit after hit, yet the shoreline standing strong. The cliffs below, the cliffs able. The old pines, reminding me of old men, standing guard over some of the most pristine lands on the east coast. The most beautiful, the most serene with some of the oldest stories of any shoreline……




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Blueberry Love & Life

Blueberry Muffin Recipe the best for sure

Blueberry Muffin Recipe all naturalWhile it is of course my site and generally I post featured weddings, engagement sessions and more. And sometimes, I post other things. Like today…. One thing I do love is baking, for a few reasons I love it. The process, the creating, the enjoyment of my children enjoying what ever it is I have made. Knowing that I didn’t use things like high fructose corn syrup and other chemicals or ingredients that  most can’t read, let alone pronounce.

TAA_1634And todays post is one of my recent baked treats and then a tad more about life. And it’s all good….

These blueberry muffins, are… to…. die…. for…… But don’t go killing anyone because the recipe is below. Seriously though, the batter, you will find to be just as, if not more, delicious than that of chocolate chip cookies. And fresh out of the oven, OMG…. And the next day, just as perfect. If I remember correctly, my kids did a magic trick and made them disappear in under 36 hours. 12 large muffins gone in 36 hours. (and okay, I probably had two….)…

Anyway.. These muffins are delicious, “healthy” and simple to make… So what are you waiting for??? Probably the ingredients and directions right???




zTAA_3310And then comes part two of this post… The part where I realize how wonderful moments can be. Yesterday may not have been the day I thought it was going to be. The day I thought it would end up being. Or how I really thought the evening would go. In that though, were these two. Hanging out in the yard and on the porch. The laughs, the chill, the moment. It’s moments like this which ground me. Showing me what the world truly has to offer. It’s moments like this that make me feel raw, but alive. And these two…. My rocks. My stability. My love. My life….

zTAA_3252Ya see, I’m real, I’m human. Like all of you. I’m me. Sometimes I can feel like I got hit in the gut or a day doesn’t go so well. And sometimes we all feel that. But man… It’s moments like this that can take every mis-step, every blow, every moment where I’m looking down as I go instead of straight ahead, and make them feel as though they never existed. These two… I love for who they are… My kids…

So while this wasn’t a wedding post, it was a post that means just as much to me as all the moments I capture for my couples. Because without moments, moments like this and like the ones I capture for my couples, life would just be… well……. lame. (P.S. She wants me to let the world know, she’s not always crosseyed. haha)


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My “break”…. – Sort of a two part post –

So for anyone following along on my site, you’ve realized posts have been slow lately. For about the past 6-8 weeks or so. That “slow” hasn’t had anything to do with not having photos to post. It’s actually almost the complete opposite because I do in deed have shoots to post, weddings to put out to the world and more. But…. Here’s the thing. As many of you get to “clock out” on Friday afternoon’s. As a professional photographer I don’t. I won’t lie, what I do is so incredibly rewarding. Being invited in to capture the moments and the love of so many couples. The flexibility to work my week schedule around my needs and travels. The excitement of creating and more. But. There are parts that, while still great, are tough at times. And that’s about 40 weeks out of the year. haha. It’s still all love, it’s still living in so many great moments. But those 40 weeks, those are like your Monday thru Friday. But my monday starts next week and my friday comes in late December early January.

Really, all I’m trying to say is that the past 6 weeks or so I’ve been laying low. Furthering my education more for this years weddings and getting ready to rock out, what will surely be, a spectacular season with so many awesome freakin’ couples!!!!

In the past 6 weeks, I’ve also been thinking about other things. Like my new studio and gallery that I recently renovated. That space will begin to showcase artists as well as my travel and landscape photography and more.

The other great thing about this year is that my year is booked solid and I already have a good handful of awesome 2016 weddings. Ya know, thinking about it, I’m not sure how many other individuals in their careers can say they have job security thru 2016… And that. That too makes me feel so incredibly lucky!!!

Anyway, all I’m getting at is that the past 6-8 weeks I’ve been laying low to recuperate, recharge, get my excitement stored up and to simply be…. But get ready… Because coming soon will be an explosion of awesome to my 2015 with all my awesome couples past and present.



Part two of this post – well, that’s today. Today it’s still winter, but it’s still raining and it’s foggy and it’s cold and it’s March and it’s dirty and it’s…… It’s so incredibly easy to go on about all the “it’s”… HOWEVER… While it is all those things… It’s also incredibly beautiful out. The softness of the landscape when it’s cloaked in this fog. The calmness. The stillness… Today I ran to the bank and took the long way back. Camera strapped into the drivers seat and these images are what came from that long loop home. All I’m really getting at here is that even in this dankness. Even on days when things aren’t looking so great, when the day is tougher than we anticipated or things don’t go as planned. There’s still so much beauty all around us, we just need to slow down and see it……





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